Thursday, December 3, 2009
Last Year I Was Afraid of Everything
When I got the dogs, Maggie was NOT housetrained yet, so I was learning how to make a fire in the woodstove and keep it going at the same time I was keeping a puppy on a six-foot leash and trying to watch her all the time. She was crated when I wasn't home, so I rushed home after work to let her out. Desmond went on jaunts for hours and I got many phone calls from people miles away telling me they had my dog. I was cold all the time. Everything was out of control and terrible and scary.
What made me think of the contrast between last year and this year is this. I'm not scared and super-alert driving home through the woods in the dark any more. I'm getting a sense of how to keep an eye open for motion and be ready to slow down quickly. But I'm relaxed about it. Desmond and Maggie stay in their electric fence while I'm gone and I can stay out late if I want now because I know they're OK (hungry maybe, but OK). I can start a fire on one try and keep it going for days. It's still wild around here and scary to newbies, but I'm feeling more at home, which is a pretty nice feeling compared to last year.