It works! Mostly. I used to be pretty uncomfortable teaching, but would fake being comfortable, calm, in control. Eventually it would happen. You can fake being happy. Smile, laugh. Act happy. You'd be surprised at how often you eventually end up being happy. Sometimes you can fake being a homesteader. Eventually you make it.
But sometimes faking it just doesn't work. Lately I've been going through the motions of some homestead-y stuff. Last week when it was still 1000 degrees outside and a million percent humidity (hottest summer on record in these parts!), I tried to can tomatoes. I started to cook the tomatoes down, but then decided it was too hot and put the whole pot into the fridge. There the pot sat until yesterday when I needed the pot to make the mozzarella cheese I've been thinking about making all summer.
I couldn't fake those two things. My mind had to be on the subject at hand. I had to be fully present, and I just ... wasn't.
Exploring the Shore of Lake Desolation
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