200 year-old house on 25 rocky acres in high country upstate NY and SO many highbush blueberries!
Thursday, September 30, 2010
The Dogs I Wasn't Supposed to See Again
When I came home from work yesterday, I had four-footed guests. The neighbor came and got them about 10 minutes after I got home.
I was wondering why I saw tire tracks from my neighbor's house to my house yesterday morning (meaning she had come up to my house while I was gone Tuesday evening). I'm guessing her dogs had come to visit Tuesday, and she retrieved them. So last night makes the second time they've been to my place, that I know of, since the court order saying she had to keep them on her property.
It's hard to describe how annoyed and powerless this makes me feel. I knew that this whole thing wasn't over, but it's been 6 weeks, so I was hoping it was.
On another note, I'm close to cancelling my match.com gig. I feel like I've given it a good shot, but overall, I'd say the impact on my life has been negative. I'd been erring on the side of meeting more people (being less choosy), and have met a ton of people who are just plain bad fits with me, and communicated with a ton more. Someone always gets kinda hurt, either me or the other person, and I don't like feeling that way and I don't want to make other people feel that way. Match has a deal where if you don't find someone in 6 months, you get a free 6 months, so I was considering just hanging in there one more month to get the free six months. But honestly, more of a bad thing does not turn it into a good thing.
The other dating site I'm on (OKCupid) is a less negative experience and I've met people that fit better with me. But it's still sucking time and energy away from more positive things I could be doing. I'm thinking of taking a complete break from the whole man-hunting thing for a while, and focusing on other things I want to spend my time on. It's hard to argue (as we all do on these dating sites) that life is good and we're complete on our own, while spending so much time looking for a partner to come along and completely change things. I think it's time to align my words ("I'm happy with my life") and my actions.