200 year-old house on 25 rocky acres in high country upstate NY and SO many highbush blueberries!
Saturday, October 3, 2009
I've lived by myself for years. I've traveled the world alone, driven across the country, twice, alone. I've lived on this 25 acres for almost a year, alone, and I can't remember the last time I've felt this lonely.
If loneliness had a face, it would look like this part of my property. Stiflingly close, very rocky and grey.
Sometimes I long so much for an other half that it's palpable, and it makes me forget that I've been a whole person for my entire life, and forget how happy I generally am by myself. First, I'm going to feel what I'm feeling for a little while. Then I'm going to go out and be part of the world and the people in it. I'll be tip-top again soon enough.